Surrendering the Wheel…

So, I had this crazy dream after an intense 24 hours.

On Wednesday, I did my first energy clearing.

I only made it available to members of The Authentic Transformation Tribe, who had to register to participate.

It went very well. (It is available any time to Tribe members, all you have to do is register. If you are interested, simply join the Tribe, message me and I will get the registration to you.)

And so did the rest of my day, until bed time.

Good Morning!

I was awakened, after about 30 minutes of sleep, to Ken yelling.

I moved my hand behind me to push him, to wiggle him, because every once in a while a dream will make him yell.

But, he wasn’t there.

He was kneeling at the side of the bed, yelling in pain.

And when he wasn’t doing that, he was rolling around on the floor yelling and grabbing things to brace himself with.

I called 911, got dressed, managed to get some shorts on Ken and some amazing EMTs showed up, got him out of the apartment and to the hospital.

As I was driving to the hospital, not only did I notice how calm I was, I had the space to see that he probably had a kidney stone.

So, this calmed me down even more, knowing he wasn’t dying, he just felt like he was.

We were sitting in a hospital that is no more than a 3-5 minute drive from our home, that  has taken care of us on several occasions.

Aside from the brief post traumatic stress I always experience when I have to go back, I knew we were safe and Ken was being well cared for.

And, yes, it was a kidney stone.

The Rest Of The Day

The rest of the day, I was, of course, delirious from being up until almost 5 AM.

I got about 5 hours of sleep, but my whole day was way off kilter.

When I finally went to bed, I slept better than I have in a very long time.

The Dream

While I was asleep, among the many vivid dreams I had, there was one that stuck out and would not let go.

I was worried about it, too.

The symbolism concerned me.

I was in the back seat of my dad’s old Oldsmobile.

Sleeping and resting peacefully.

I was so relaxed, completely confident that I was safe and would be getting to my destination without incident.

At one point, in the dream, I woke up and saw that no one was driving the car.

And I was OK with that because “I programmed in where I want to go. It knows how to get me there.”

Then I went back to sleep, relaxed and secure in the knowledge that I was safe and would arrive at my destination when I was supposed to, perfectly whole and well.

When I woke up, I was a little concerned for a while.

My interpretation for a car in dreams is that it is a representation of my life.

And the person driving is an indicator of who is in charge.

Generally, you want the person driving your car to be you.

But this time, there was no one driving.

Was my life that out of control?

All I could think of was the Heavy Dirty Soul video, from Twenty One Pilots; where it looks like no one’s driving the car that Tyler’s in, until the end (and that’s a whole other symbolic journey for another day 😉 ).

Then it came to me.

In the dream, and in that moment, I was completely calm and at peace, with total faith that everything was OK.

I was willing to surrender the wheel to the Universe, Spirit, God, Allah, Buddha – whoever.

That’s who was driving and why everything was and is OK.

Of course!

I know that.

Actually, I knew that.

And my dream supported that.

All is well and in Divine Order <3



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